“My writings are eclectic. I have mentors around the world!” Thank you, T. D. Jakes, for such inspiring thoughts and creative descriptions!
The words “soul ache” describe my condition many times in my life. I oftentimes lived in a situation, job, or relationship, maybe peacefully, for months or years. Then one day my soul began to suffer restlessness and confusion. I simply “knew” it was no longer right for me. I wish I could say that as soon as I felt my soul weep, I made the move. Unfortunately, an area of my soul which seemed to conflict with that move is my stubbornness and my loyalty.
I’ve been known to say, “I’ll stay here with you until I die.” And at times, I did almost physically pass to the heavenly. Then there were many more encounters when my soul just broke down and cried, as I felt a pain in the deepest part of me. A deep knowing that the life was slowly seeping through the cracks in my heart. But, I was unwilling to free my grasp on the familiar, to release my clutch-hold on the few pleasantries of the current situation for fear of facing the responsibility of handling life on my own, with no shoulders on which to place the burden of decisions other than on Kem Thomas Lutz.
So, I baked until burned and finally got the courage to say, “It’s over.”
Those times have been riddled with fear and uncertainty, oftentimes simply putting one foot in front of the other in constant prayer…or rather, begging God to help me. In those times, He showed up as my ever-present help in times of trouble. The Almighty God stepped into the void I had created from my necessary, long-awaited, imminent decision. Since I had finally given up, He could take over and was able to do immeasurably more than I could even ask or imagine!
My life lesson, when I began to hear the cracking of my soul and sense the tears falling on my circumstance or relationship was, “Move – knowing that it’s time.”
Does your soul ache? Are you holding yourself back when deep down inside you know it’s time to move? Don’t be afraid to let go and make the move, fully relying on God with all your heart. He is able to do more than you can ever think or ask, and will give you what you need to do what needs to be done.